So the last few weeks have been struggles. Although some people tell me that I need to quit admitting this and be happy I am gonna keep being honest. Struggling does not mean that I am not happy it means that, even I the strong rock, am not constantly strong! It has been interesting to see however that even in the moments I call weak my spirit is still strong.
I also decided, well understood, that I don't need to be perfect. Yes I strive and push myself for perfection, but in this life I will not reach it. I will make mistakes and that is okay because that is what this life is for. I am dealing with aspects of my past that isn't the easiest, but I know without a doubt that now is the time. Along with these trial is the amazing blessing of friends.
For the first time in along time I actually know what it means to have true friends. Not just one or two, but numerous friends that I can count on. They remind me that I am only twenty-four not fifty-nine. It is those moments that help me get through the other trials round about me.
Along with that I remembered how much I love love. Not, well included, is true love, but I am talking about real love. The love you share towards everyone that is unconditional and enduring. The one that is selfless and caring. The one that reminds you of the love the Savior has for you. It seems that Satan tries so hard to get me to forget the power love has, but once again Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ helped me step on his head!!! I am so grateful for that aspect.
I am remembering me as who I am not what I became or who I think I should be. I am finding the me Heavenly Father wants and needs me to see. This is my greatest joy and the best Christmas gift I could recieve this year!!!
