"F***ing Perfect"

"F***ing Perfect" P!nk
"Made a wrong turn, once or twice
Dug my way out, blood and fire
Bad decisions, that's alright
Welcome to my silly life
Mistreated, misplaced, misunderstood
Miss 'No way, it's all good', it didn't slow me down
Mistaken, always second guessing, underestimated
Look, I'm still around

Pretty pretty please, don't you ever ever feel
Like you're less than f*ckin' perfect
Pretty pretty please, if you ever ever feel like you're nothing
You're f*ckin' perfect to me!

You're so mean, when you talk about yourself, you were wrong
Change the voices in your head, make them like you instead
So complicated, look happy, you'll make it!
Filled with so much hatred...such a tired game
It's enough! I've done all I can think of
Chased down all my demons, I've seen you do the same

Pretty pretty please, don't you ever ever feel
Like you're less than f*ckin' perfect
Pretty pretty please, if you ever ever feel like you're nothing
You're f*ckin' perfect to me!

The whole world's scared so I swallow the fear
The only thing I should be drinking is an ice cold beer
So cool in line, and we try try try, but we try too hard and it's a waste of my time
Done looking for the critics, cause they're everywhere
They don't like my jeans, they don't get my hair
Exchange ourselves, and we do it all the time
Why do we do that? Why do I do that?
 
Why do I do that..?


Yeah, oh, oh baby, pretty baby..!
Pretty pretty please, don't you ever ever feel
Like you're less than f*ckin' perfect
Pretty pretty please, if you ever ever feel
Like you're nothing, you're fucking perfect to me
You're perfect, you're perfect!
Pretty pretty please, if you ever ever feel like you're nothing
You're fuckin' perfect to me...

In a world filled with variation it continues to amaze me that we still put each other down or make people feel as though they are nothing.  This song, although there is the "F" word, is a touching, inspiring, and empowering song.  It seems as far back as I can remember that others have ripped me apart.  Always trying to tell me what flaws I have and what I needed to change.  However, something changed these last six months.  

I can still remember the exact moment when I realized I didn't know who I was.  I was asked to identify myself and I stared blankly at the sheet of paper for ten minutes.  Finally I put what came to my mind and that was filled with negative aspects that others have told me throughout the years.  I was ashamed and embarrassed to share what I wrote with others.  It was that moment that I realized that something was definitely wrong.    

This lead to the hardest few months of my life as people continued to put me down.  It was even harder as I tried to turn to people who were friends and show my true side.  This led to less friends and more tears.  I finally woke up one day and realized just who I am.  None of the crap people say or try to force on me is true.  It is their perception of who I am or who I should be that gets in the way not who I am.

The fact is I am a hearing, white, straight, female, independent/dependent, confident, open, caring, beautiful, person who is on the path to changing the world I live in.  This means sometimes I might come off brash, harsh, negative, intrusive, or overbearing, but that is just a fraction a moment of who I am.  I am getting stronger everyday in accepting myself.  I bring the variation to the world that the world needs because without me it would continue to go on believing there is only one type of perfect.  So yes P!nk swears in her song, but maybe just maybe that is what is needed to shake someone from their fog to finding themselves and accepting themselves.