Life is as it is suppose to be!

It never ceases to amaze me the obstacles we face in this life.  Times of sorrow seem to come when we have so much going on.  For me it is several different things hitting all at once that seem heavier then I can bare. 
Life mainly is going great.  School is keeping me busy, but is allowing my dreams to come true now.  Going into Social Work can be difficult, but for me it wasn't a choice.  It was more like a calling or a part of who I am.  As I am working on several projects I am seeing I can do the work.  How my personality is meant for this work. 
My health is getting better.  I have successfully lost 10 pounds which is hard for me.  My PCOS is getting better controlled, but still leaving me hurdles to cross.  So many people have told me I am fat and made it out to be something so easy to control.  For me it is more then just being lazy it is fighting with my own body to function correctly.  I feel the most beautiful now not because I am loosing weight, but because I am at peace with who I am as a whole person.
Socially things are as they are.  People come in and out of my life and I stopped expecting them to stay.  If they stay in my life I count it as an amazing blessing.  I have amazing friends who stood by me through the darkest and hardest times of my life.  Others left but I don't hate them I just accept they couldn't be.
Everyday I awake to a life I am grateful for.  I am not ashamed of the decisions I have made nor afraid to be confident although others may not agree.  I am who I am and I no longer feel the need to change.  I have some refining left, but that is what this life is for to be refined in the fire of the one who can make us into who we are suppose to be.  I can and will achieve my desires when the timing is right and for me that is the promise that carries me on.
Yes there is sorrow as I realize my greatest desires are still out of reach, but I know when the timing is right it will be more then I ever thought it would be.  I have work left to do and that is my focus because if I always look for the future I will miss the moments now that need me in them.