Running

Some times I find in life that there are moments where we run. We run from what we long for most due to fear. Thinking at that moment that we are doing what is best, but really we are giving up the best thing for us. I am use to running, been running most of my life, but I know I can’t run forever nor do I want to anymore.

We all have something we want, dream of, or desire most. For some it is a relationship, a family, an education, a career, a talent, or just the next step in our lives. Sometimes it seems to be coming so easily that we fear it is too good to be true. I currently am in this stage. I am getting the education I have always longed for. About to apply for the school of my dreams and achieve the career that I feel I was created to do. I am terrified! This fear is natural. This fear is there in some cases because it is us stepping out of our comfort zone into the will of the Lord. It is also a tool Satan uses to get us to run from the path. Then there are other times it is just our insecurities.

We run because we think that it won’t hurt as bad, that we don’t deserve it, or even that we don’t truly have enough to offer. This is another deception. If we are presented with our dreams, desires, needs, or wants we must remember by whom it was given. It is natural to fear something when it is something we feel inadequate about. The thing to remember is that if we turn this over to the Lord He will give us the direction. It means casting aside our doubts and replacing them with faith.

I have great faith that the Lord will lead me! He always has. He knows me better then I know myself and wants the best for me. I am finding things that are best for me I never dreamt of. Now when I feel like running I do, but I run into His loving embrace and allow him to teach me the truth. My inadequacies are swallowed up in His perfect love and knowledge. I know I deserve my dreams, desires, and needs. Not always do I get what I want, but I usually receive blessings I never thought I was good enough for.

I know I have a lot to offer my family, my friends, the world, and my future family. I know I am not perfect, but that doesn’t mean I do not deserve blessings or have nothing to offer. I have me to offer. I come with a shoulder to lean on that has the great strength to bear burdens, a heart that gives and receives loves without holding back, experiences for the better and worse that continually makes me wiser, compassion that can help heal a wounded soul, arms that give comfort, strength, help and support to any within their reach or embrace, eyes that share the light and love of the Lord, a smile that brings joy and understanding, and legs to go the distance.

There will still be moments that I forget, fear, or loose faith in myself, but I am blessed with a Heavenly Father who will not let me forget that which I know. I know this life is going to have its difficulties, but I know it doesn’t matter because they have been over come. It was this act of a loving Brother that helps me put my running shoes away and walk along the path that has been laid before me.